Rain

I wanted to post an image about yesterday's rain but I forgot all about it. That wut happens when somebody is pissed. You tend to forget everything *hiks~


This remind me of an old song by BJ Thomas.

Raindrops keep falling on my head...
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed,
nothing seems to fit.
Those raindrops are falling on my head, they keep falling.

So I just did me some talking to the sun.
And I said I didn't like the way, he got things done...
sleeping on the job...
those raindrops are falling on my head, they keep falling.

But there's one thing I know:
The blues they send to meet me won't defeat me.
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me.

Raindrops keep falling on my head but that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turning red.
Crying's not for me cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complaining.
Because I'm free. Nothing's worrying me.

Ways To Handle Stress

I find it so obvious that I'm not the kind of person who handle stress very well. So, today, I decided to look for information from the net (it's never to late to start fixing urself?). Wow, there's a lot, but I think I'll share some here.

Stress affects your body so much as food and exercise. A combination of emotional and physical pressures, it can either help you with challenges and problems or make them many times worse (indeed, I think my case may consider as worst? >_<"). Some feelings that often come from stress:

• being tired all the time (yeap having that, I thought this might be that my energy was sucked out by the sun?)
  
• mood change for no reason (i thought this might be cause by pms)
• can't concentrate (i can't stop thinking, but i dun doze off and lose focus)
  
• cry over stewped things (most probably, coz i get frustrated with people all the time)
  
• can't sleep (can sleep but i tend to wake up around 3am everyday)
• headaches (only when i'm pissed)
• fearful, but don't know what's frightening you (i get paranoid over things sometimes)
• have nightmares a lot (i won't say i have nightmares all the time but i guess it's more towards running away or maybe meeting someone, but i think that have to do with insecurity?)
• palms get sweaty (now who can tell me that they dun haf sweaty palms?)
• accident prone (not really, sometimes minor cuts)
• hungry all the time, no matter how much you eat (er i guess i get hungry but i tend to starve myself, does that count?)
• no motivation to do anything (ahhh this happens all the time. I blame it on laziness)
• loss of enthusiasm (most definately)

Click here to know more about stress (more...)

I'm learning ways to handle stress. Hopefully I live a better healthy life.

And I know I should stop sighing. It's really bad. I know!

Too Pissed To Have A Title!

Seriously I'm freaking pissed!!!!! Starting from today, I'm so seperating my photos. I used to share "My Picture" folder to anyone have access to it at home. Little that I know somebody changed my file names!!!!! >_<" so freaking pissed!!!!!!

I'm very sensitive about my files and I never rename my files! >_<"

&)@(#&amp;*)$(&#%)(#&*$)#&$)#&$)(&#%)(#@&%*(#@&)%(@!#&*%*%&*(&%*&%

Loan Shark

I'm juz curious. Why do people loan from "loan sharks"? Seriously. They charge even more. Banks give out loans too. Why don't they loan from there? Hmm, weird.

It happened again today. Loan shark I mean. I think this time is a different guy who came asking for "bitch". As usual, she's no where to be seen. I juz dun get it. She loan everywhere and dun pay. I think she's more happy using people's money? Hmm weird. Seriously weird. She's definately the kind who wanna dress to impress. I wonder where's her brain. Hmmm...

Creepy when one of my colleague told me that "the collectors" would sometimes use force. Does this involve killing people too? I wonder.

Dream Interpretation

I had a dream of the same person. I am sick. I know. Who knows how to interprete dreams? >_<" Why I keep dreaming of the same person? *sigh So, it's like this, I dreamt of meeting "him" and we were out for a drink. But the weird thing, I'm the one serving him glukose. Weird. I did some info digging. I dunno how does this relate but

"Dreams about love not always have sexual meanings, they might reflect your longing for love, warmth, affection and understanding. If you dream of being in love, you will be disappointed in reality. if someone else is in love with you, this person will be of great service to you. Getting a love letter in the dream foretells bad news. If you are the one, who writes a love letter, you are in love right now."

Source: Dream-Land's Dream Dictionary

Ehhh...so not helping! Ahhh, my days couldn't get any worst. Parking here is always a drag. I wish I have someone to send me to work. So I won't need to worry about looking for parking at this lousy place. *sigh. Where did all my luck go? Well, at least today I waited for less than 1 hour. Normal days I would be waiting more than an hour or so *sigh.

Energy Draining

I drained my energy very fast if I'm angry. So, now I'm freaking sleepy. Gawd, it's so quiet not having kitties running around the room. And I'm sleepy. But I want to lvl my page at maple. Hmmm

I'm losing it

*sigh. I got a standard lecture from my dad about having kitties in my room. *sigh. He is saying that the cats might kill me coz I sucked too much furr when I'm sleeping (*imagine hairballs in between lungs). He said I should put them somewhere else? Being offensive about it, I ask him where? He said anywhere except in the room. It must be outside the room. *sigh. I told him I'll keep em in the toilet. He said he dun want them near the bed. *sigh. Mum had suggested me to put them outside. >_<" I can't. They can't be outside. Putting them in toilet even makes me wanna cry already. >_<" My thought, it must be an inside person. *sigh. I HATE YOU BITCH!

*sigh~~!!! I actually took the vacuum and cleaned part of my room. I couldn't clean the other part coz my sis is at her computer. Being noisy as always. *sigh~! Today must be my lousy day. Feeling so miserable. I'm seriously having a feeling that I had years ago. I thought I successfully killed that feeling but owww guess wut? It's starting to haunt me. *sigh~! ARGH!!! I'm so frustrated. Where the hell am I gonna put my kitties. *sigh~~!!!!!!

This practically spoiled my appetite. Oh wait. I've been skipping lotsa meals lately. How convenient *haih~

Noted: When I'm angry. I talk crap. So mind the crap. And I obviously dun handle stress very well. Oh wutever.

Thought: "My temper could seriously kill me"

Panic

Seriously, I'm losing my mind! I thought my sis would have use the middle door to go out this morning. Instead, she use the front main door >_<" oh my gawd! I totally snapped man. I was calling my eldest sis juz to verify. Thank gawd she's at home >_<" If not, I'm doomed!

Wut do u do when u're nervous?

Not a new thing or a secret to anyone. I'll be biting my lips or biting my nails or be looking anywhere (talking about paranoia?). Er, I dunno why but I juz dun do crowds. Crowds make me uncomfortable. Especially a crowd filled with strangers! *sigh~ Must be em genes. Sick I know. Ahhh the best part, I get sick if I go to ppl's house. Hence, the lack of eating. So, ppl, if you found me at somebody's house eating very little, am terribly sorry. It's juz me getting nervous. Takes a lil time to adapt to places actually >_<" *sigh~

Not totally fond of being like this but yeah. It's juz me *hiks~

Sunday = Rest Day

Every Sunday, I'll be at home, lazing around. The only thing I do is watch tv, probably eat? play games till the day ends. (sounds pretty boring ain't it? more like somebody with no life at all?). Well, this is the best part of being me. You get to experience the most boring life ever hahahah NOT. Though, I would really appreciate more peace on a Sunday. Not having to listen to people's sarcastic arguments. I seldom get that these days. Peace and quiet I mean. I know I shouldn't complain much. Somebody somewhere would probably experience worst days than me but yeah, that's one more thing everyone gotta take note about me. I've been complaining since I got the ability to talk hahahahaha. Most people get tired of me complaining. At one extent, I stopped talking. But really, do you think I can stop talking? No rite? See, this is why I have a blog/journal or somewhere to crap about it. Obviously? (gee, I sound really energetic aren't I? while I'm suppose to be sleeping since it's really past my bed time?)

I guess sometimes, if I think too much, I couldn't seem to stop. I guess some of these kinda things are influenced by my environment or maybe I picked it up from a movie or something? Dun u guys think? Like I could possibly get inspired by even reading through somebody's blog or something? Yeah, sometimes I get inspired by even looking at people's artwork. I dunno. Oh yeah, guess wut I watched today? Bunch of anime from Animax and the movie "Hitch". This movie can never bore me somehow. I enjoyed it all the time I get to watch it. Very inspiring. Though I won't put my hopes up too high on the thing call "Love" hahahaha. Yes, it's late and I'm yapping. My kittens aren't sleeping. They are playing and making lotsa noise jumping around.

Bahhhhhh~~~ I dunno wut I'm talking about rite now coz I've been thinking too much and seriously, I should be sleeping and stop thinking. For now. Till then, I hope everyone have a wonderful day. And mind me for being so talkative today. Must be those darn hormones. >_<" Gewd nite.

Noted: Coffee can make u high but I dun think tea can?

OMG! I edited this twice coz I forgot to add some useful information. Ogie, it's like this. I love Panasonic Lumix DMC-LZ2 digital camera's macro function. Seriously, u need not to stand real close to the subject to get a macro shot. While using Canon A710 IS camera that I recently bought, unfortunately, u can't zoom like mad to get a macro shot. Or maybe it's my skills? It might be all wrong? I guess, but I had to like be as close as I can to get shot of insects >_<" which is troublesome and creepy. I'll post some pix soon to show u wut I mean. Till then, I'm really gonna head off to bed now. I hope my mind won't go wander again. I might have to edit this again? Nahhh I dun think so hahahah...

Worst Day of The Month

Noted: Guys, bare with my complains. It's a girl thing.

That explains the mood swings. I've been drinking lotsa cold water lately. I know I shouldn't but >_<" I dunno. Sometimes I feel so thristy and crave for cold water. >_<" Ooooohh, the pain. It's a habit for me to wake up at 3am. *sigh. I dunno why. I juz do, sick ain't it? This morning, stomach ache like shite! Ooo and I did notice one of my kitten is missing. So, I went out to look for her. I had to go in and out of my room for 2 times till I found her. Poor thing. I wonder how long she was outside the room crying to get in. *smack Tina. My sister must have open the door and she went out. *sigh

Ahhh, they smell really gewd now. I bath both of them yesterday. Ohhh, that reminds me, I gotta buy cat fewd again. I'm out. >_<"

I've been playing maple again. Uh uh, the day before, 2x drop rate. Yesterday and today will have 2x exp. So nice. Though I would prefer more but it's better than nothing rite? OMG! I can't stand it anymore, I'll be curling on my bed now. Till then...*pfttttttt

I should post this days ago

Yeap, my colleague said 2 days free parking hahahahahha. I thought she was joking. See see! They tar-ed the road. I wonder how long that gonna last? Hmmm...

When I Grow Old, Will You Grow Old With Me?

Could his answer be a yes? "hurray!!!" or maybe a no? "boo!!!". *sigh go figure!

I was watching Grey's Anatomy. Today's episode is about Derek and Addison Shepherd's closest friend, Savvy and Weiss (I think) came to them for operation to avoid breast and ovarian cancer. Meanwhile, George can’t understand why a patient who fell five stories doesn’t seem happy to have survived, well actually after he survived he asked George to do him a favour by looking for his ex-girlfriend Daisy, but somehow Daisy didn't wanna have anything to do with that guy and George lied to the guy about seeing her. After that, the guy died at the operating room, means, "no hope for you dood!"; another story is about an elderly gentleman makes a difficult decision upon learning that his wife has only a few months to live; Christina and Burke try to have a “normal” date, and Chief Webber is disappointed by Bailey’s fellowship decision -- until he learns her reasons (she's pregnant).

That kept me thinking. Would I ever gonna find somebody who will spend his lifetime with me? I sound so weird even to say it. *sigh. I doubt it. Even the person I like the most also barely knows that I like him. Or wait, he knows only he dun wanna know? *pfttttt wth I'm thinking about? *pfttttttt...la la la. This show is making me think too much. I know *sigh.

Must distract myself. Must play maple. Must do something else. Stay bz and keep bz weeeeeeeeeee...

Noted: I'm a bit sleepy and distracted. This is not exactly wut I thought about before I blog. Wut was on my mind earlier was a bit more pathetic. So yeah, maybe I'll edit later. *sigh~ *pfttttttt

The implementation of new layout

I started the design at 4pm yesterday. Continued halfway last nite and finished it today before noon. So wut do u guys think? There's still some minor error somewhere that I still need to fix. *sigh~ Other than that, I think everything is in working condition?

If it's not, please tell me. TQ!

Hope everyone like my new layout. If u ask me, I'm still not satisfied with it >_<" Btw, I'll be posting some photos of the tar-ed road here at Gaya Street.

I've changed the cbox smilies too. Some might be missing, so bare with me.

Credits: Website Goodies, Smiley Arena

Walking is Exercising

Walking to and back from the bank took me at least or less than 10 minutes with a complete transaction. I did that coz there's barely RM100 left in my bank account. Which I think is sick. Besides, I couldn't do any online transfer or reload if I dun have any money there could I?

I'm working on a new template for my blog. Still can't come up with anything *pffttt~~~ I sucked. Huhuhu~ play maple is better for me now weeeeeeeeeeee :))

1 Litre of Tears

I know I haven't been posting lately. I've been playing Maple till Saturday and was watching this japanese dorama called "1 Litre of Tears". I watched 2 episode per day. Well actually I watched 4 episode coz I can't find the other episode >_<" I think my bro have the DVD somewhere. Anyways, it's a story about a 15 year old girl's life struggling an uncurable disease called "Spinocerebellar atrophy". The dorama is based on a true story a Japanese girl named Kito Aya, who had this disease. She kept writing in her diary to remember her experiences until she could no longer hold a pen. more...

Very touchy story. MUST watch!

My bro is giving me the silent treatment again. *pftttttt. FINE! The reason being coz I'm so dependent. Yeah rite. You're pushy! :P *pfttttttt.

I'm gonna play Maple in awhile. Oooo, before that, I must blog about an incident for this morning. *sigh

As you can see, I've drawn the road which leads to my house. Ogie, so the story is like this. Every morning, I'll be using this U-Turn wutever you call it thinggie if I wanted to go to the other side of the road. Oh btw, those are cars labelled by numbers. Noted: I'm No. 2 car. Before, there's only 1, 2, 5 and 6 car are there. Yes, I was looking at the cars passing so I could get to the side that I wanted. I was getting ready to go when suddenly to my shock there's 2 additional car there. I nearly bang that little white kancil (car No. 3) with a lady (she's a midget!) driving it. *pfttt!!! That was close. BLOODY DUMBARSE! *sigh~! Stewped ppl who dun wanna queue!!!!! So tell me? Wut's wrong with this picture? Shouldn't those car be like around where car No.7 and 8 is? *pftttt~~~

The moral of the story, look left and right *pfttttttt >_<" Oh noted, there's a street light pole on the road on the way to Likas. Somebody must have bang it for drunk driving or maybe that somebody is blind? Hmmm I wonder.

Overall? YEAH RITE!?!?!?!? MORE LIKE TIGHTS *sigh >_<"

*sigh..my level 30 page with new clothing aiya~! disaster clothing *sigh

Oooo and one of my skill is to threaten monsters hahaha that's so funny looking.

on the ship to Orbis

inside the ship

getting some air at the bottom of the ship

Interesting Signs

Something I would like to share. Some might seen it before, some maybe or never seen it before. Anyways, shuddup coz I wanted to share heee~

Oh and I've been bz mapling weeeeeeeeeeeee...wut a joy!!!!!!!

now won't u wanna kill somebody when u see that?

The good and the bad

My sis loaned some space on my hddisk. The gewd thing is, she got a new compy. The bad thing is returning the files to her new hddisk. *sigh. I know I could plug her old hddisk to her new compy but seriously, we're giving each other silent treatment now. And since her compy can't seem to network to ours, it's all farked up. I've been trying to transfer in various ways, thinking that I might be able to have some extra space. But now. Did the hard stewped way.

• 1st attempt: MSN share <-- gewd thing, a lot of files are transferred. but not all *sigh
• 2nd attempt: Bluetooth <-- omg, connection slow like siput~!
• 3rd attempt (and this is final): DVD-RW <-- burn and erase till finish >_<"

Kill me now!

My stewpedity gets the best of me weeeeeeeeeeeee ^_^"

Julian quoted: "God Save Our Computers!"

Sihatnya ni urang. My colleague work here for 10 over years. I think 15-17 years I can't remember precisely. But she told me that this fellow, he's been around since then grabbing people's fewd/drinks without asking. So yeah, his life is longer than others I suppose?

Have you ever wonder. Where are there beggers and crazy ppl around? Once, I was eating at McD CPS with some frens. We saw like 2 kids begging for fewd/money. >_<"

Maple Down = TM Conspiracy?

It's a conspiracy!!!! Uwaaaaaaaa!!! I can't play~!!! I can't play!!! >_<" Since yesterday 4pm. Today also still can't play >_<" But why?!!? Izzit becoz of Streamyx again? It's always streamyx. They're the ones behind all this mess!!!! *sigh~ Oooo so today. One of my colleague told me that we no need to jot down our attendance starting next month. She's saying that sarcasticly. Obviously saying that coz yesterday the boss looked angry when bitch wasn't at office. But once bitch at office, he started smiling? WTF?! Is she using some kinda spell? Coz everyone seems to "bow" to her everytime she did something wrong. *sigh~